rosey_peaches

Add me please, I'm starting afresh :)

I had to steal this from moganog. I love filling these out :)

Opening credits: Firestarter - The Progidy
Waking up: My Wish - Rascal Flatts
Average day: Homesick At Spacecamp - Fall Out Boy
First date: Frozen - Madonna
Falling in love: Butterfly - Delta Goodrem
Love scene: Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Fight scene: Stealing Society - System Of A Down
Breaking up: Call Me Ishmael - Get Cape. Wear Cape. Fly
Getting back together: Feelin' Way Too Damn Good - Nickelback
Secret love: In My Place - Coldplay
Life's okay: Somebody Told Me - The Killers
Mental breakdown: In The Limelight - The Mirandolas
Driving: Stirb Nicht Vor Mir - Rammstein
Learning a lesson: Fake Tales of San Francisco - Arctic Monkeys
Deep thought: Let Go - Frou Frou
Flashback: The Moon Song - The Mighty Boosh
Partying: Lose Yourself - Eminem
Happy dance: Divine Intervention - Taking Back Sunday
Regretting: White Lines and Red Lights - Between The Trees
Long night alone: Stay Close Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade
Death scene: Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner - Fall Out Boy
Closing credits: The Power of Goodbye - Madonna

It's weird how so many fit.


I've actually bothered to get ready for the first time in about 48 hours. I'm waaaay too lazy! Had the longest shower everrrr. But I used this really nice smelling mango smoothie stuff on my face, and it's made my skin all flakey :( Damn having super sensitive skin!
Tomorrow, I'm gonna make make myself get ready before midday, then I'm gonna go out somewhere. I'm sick of wasting my days away when I'm fortunate enough to have an extra week study leave from school, even though my exams finished last week.
motivateme.com

I'm gonna try sell my old old old xbox and my shitty laptop at the weekend. I desperately need money, and I really need to save up for some driving lessons. Grr, why is everything so expensive?!


What can I compare you to? A window the sun shines through?

Right, I'm definitely gonna try update this a lot more often, even though I've not got many friends on here!

At the moment I'm on study leave, although I've finished all my exams now.  I've not been to school for almost a month, it feels weird, and I kinda miss it! :( I mean yeh, it's great being able to stay in bed til 2pm and do whatever the fuck I want, but I like seeing people everyday without having to bother making plans to do see them!
My new double bed arrived last week, and I bloody love it! I'm in it most of the day recently. I was in it until about 7pm today, with the exception of getting food.

I HAVE TICKETS TO SEE THE MIGHTY BOOSH LIVE! My friend and I rushed home from school as soon as they went on sale. Luckily we had just the one study period then, such good timing! Not only did we manage to get them 8 minutes after they went on sale, but we have advanced ones! So we'll be sat righttttt at the front. Omgomgomg I cannot wait!! It makes me laugh 'cos everyone else had got really shit seats at the back :p

I'm going crazy on Ebay. I know you're supposed to be 18 to use it, but hey, I'm a rebel, what can I say? :p But seriously, I've been a member for about a week and had barely any money on my debit card, yet I've still managed to buy 3 items of jewellery and a Jeremy Clarkson book, which should hopefully arrive tomorrow :D I'm so in love with Top Gear. Richard Hammond and Jeremy Clarkson are legends. And on that bombshell, I shall shut up!

I had my first A-Level exams last week. Sociology went alright, but I don't think I put enough detail and explanation in my essays. Oh well, that's the subject I care least about. I'm pretty confident about my psychology exam, I hope I did well, I've tried really hard in the lessons! English went pretty well too. Had to write a speech, I chose to write about knife crime, one of the options they put on the paper, just because I couldn't be bothered thinking of anything else, and I had loads of ideas for that as soon as I saw it. I think I did a good commentary for it too, which makes a change, cos I never do that good on them in class.

I've learnt just how important my surroundings and my friends are to me recently. My mum and dad forced me to go on a 'holiday' with them to the middle of nowhere, somewhere near Durham just after Christmas, and I can honestly say that I've never felt so imprisoned or homesick in my whole life. Get this, they had booked a cottage for TWO people, and it doesn't take a genius to figure out that; mum + dad + daughter = THREE people. So yeh, I was stuck with NO bedroom, and the farmer person who owned the cottage had put out an extra bed in the living room. It was horrible. As soon as we arrived, I went into my parents room and just cried non-stop for about 2 hours, then read a bit of my Jodi Picoult book to try take my mind off it. My parents can be so inconsiderate at times. I mean, I'm a 16 year old girl. Firstly, I don't want to stay in the middle of nowhere for 5 fucking days. Secondly, I think I deserve SOME privacy. My mum even had the cheek to say I was being selfish! And obviously she isn't selfish when she only dragged me on the holiday 'cos she wanted a holiday and didn't trust me to stay at home or at a friends. Fucking hell. I couldn't even sit in the bathroom 'cos my mum was always in there washing her fucking hands, and when I was trying to enjoy a shower, she was moaning that I was taking too long. I was only in there for like 15 minutes! I hate showering in any shower that isn't mine. But anyway, that feels like a lifetime ago, I try and forget about it. I'm just so so glad and so relieved to be home. I'm so thankful that I didn't have to stay there over new year!

Eeee I saw The Wombats playing in HMV in Leeds yesterday! They were great. But the bouncer people wouldn't let us go to the signing 'cos we didn't have a CD to get signed. How unfair. Why couldn't I get my bloody wristband signed or something?!
I love how I surprised people. I saw one of my other friends there, and when she saw me she was like "Oh, I didn't think you liked this band!" and I replied with "Yeh I love them. I love how people are always surprised by my music taste 'cos it's so varied!" and I am. Haha. So many people don't actually know me. Apart from my close friends obviously.

Back to school on Monday. I actually can't wait, I've missed so many people! I've missed registration too, crushing over the guy sat behind me :p can't believe I've liked him for about 4 years and I don't think I've ever had a proper conversation with him. I'm gonna change that!
Ohh yes. Confidence.com!

a big, fat, pointless quiz :)

01. You have the chance to go back and change something, what is it?
i tend to go with the <i>no regrets</i>, and <i>what's done is done,</i> however, i would have liked to have been a bit more confident in my first few weeks back in year 7. some people still see me a shy now, and it's 5 years later!

02. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
i could definitely live without it, but i wouldn't want to hear the rest of the population moan about it.

03. Your CD collection is repossessed. But you may keep one. Which one?
well i'm not really a cd person, modern technology is the forward. if i had to choose though, it would probably be an evanescence album or the lydia album because i got them as presents :)

04. Do you believe world peace is possible?
no way, i hate being defeatist and pessimistic, but it's completely unrealistic. too many people hold different thoughts and opinions.

05. I'm a genie. Name your wish.
i would like to figure out exactly what i want, so i can work towards getting it.

06. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you off.
Appearance: dirty, bad hair
Personality: arrogance

07. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you on?
Appearance: eyes, i love eyes, oh and they need to be clean-shaved :p
Personality: humour, mystery

08. Speaking of sex, what did you think about Brokeback Mountain?
i've never seen it!

09. What are you obsessive about?
psychoanalysing people, i love thinking about why people do what they do, and why they act the way they act. good job i do psychology :)

10. Leatherface is in the kitchen. What do you do?
erm..express my view on how stupid the name leatherface is?

11. Do people underestimate you?
i'd say it's very likely.

12. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
my friends and a good nights sleep, definitely.

13. Honestly, do you talk about myspace in real life?
yes.

14. Have you met someone online in person?
i have.

15. What do you hope to have accomplished by the end of the year?
to be noticed more in 6th form, not in an attention seeking way, in a positive, <i>i've contributed to things</i> sort of way.

16. Do you believe minimum wage should be raised?
definitely. i think a lot of wages should be raised, i have no idea how people afford to live these days.

17. What is the background on your computer?
it's one i made, it's got an apple in the corner, then i've written "hola! me llama manzana. soy muy sabroso :)" hehe.

18. Do you have any really crazy relatives?
yes, my mum.

19. Pretend you're 15 deep in beers. Describe what you would be doing?
i'd be wondering why the fuck i'd just drunk beer, and probably being sick..ewww!

20. Does everyone in your life know the real you?
obviously not, i wouldn't want them all to know me!

21. Last thing you said?
"well if you write down a list, i can get them for you."

22. What is the most ridiculous fear you have?
i'm always worried about people lurking around outside my house late at night, i can get quite paranoid at times! :(

23. Who was the last person to hug you?
loubeee

24. What is the status between you and the last boy/girl you kissed?
friends.

25. When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
never! peanut butter is horrible, it's so sickening, and to put it with something as nice as jelly should be a crime.

26. When did you last have a home-cooked meal?
i can't remember.

27. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
noooo!

28. Who do you miss?
nobody at this present moment in time.

29. Are you named after a grandparent?
nope.

30. Does someone love you?
yes :)

31. Do you throw up gang signs?
not really no.

32. Have you ever broken a rib?
nooooo.

33. Last song you heard?
<i>the bangles - video killed the radio star</i>. lo quiero <3

34. What was the last thing you ate?
bailey's cheesecake :)

35. How do you feel RIGHT now?
quite blank, but looking forward to tomorrow!

36. Broken any bones?
noo, i'm lucky!

37. Have you driven anywhere today?
i have not.

38. Whats your hair like?
brown and blonde.

39. Would you ever work for the border patrol?
nah.

40. Whose car were you in last?
el coche de mi padre :)

41. Where did you go?
out shopping and back home.

43. Where were you born?
in a hospital.

45. Is your birthday on a holiday?
always :D

47. Do you have any friends or family in the war right now?
no.

48. Are you a vegetarian?
no, i wouldn't be able to be, i end up fainting all the time because i probably wouldn't find a protein substitute for meat that i liked.

49. Do you worry about global warming?
not really, and at the moment i really don't think there's a need to worry. there's no way this weather is anywhere near warm, and neither was summer. global freezing more like!

50. Do you like polar bears?
yes, they're so cute! ^_^

51. Do you like alligators?
arghh nooo, snappy snap.

52. Which of the Marley brothers do you like better?
don't know either of them all that personally if i'm being honest.

53. What slang word do you call marijuana?
weed. errky.

54. Do you have to get your wisdom teeth out?
i don't know.

55. Ashley or Mary-Kate?
neither really.
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57. Favorite tv show growing up?
i had quite a few.

58. Do you have a tan?
nooo, i'm like a milk bottle :(

59. Where were you two hours ago?
in the main room.

60. Life... How do you feel about it?
good at the moment. barapapapa..i'm loving it!

61. Which do you enjoy more: NIKE or BAPE?
well i've only ever heard of nike!

62. Name someone you love.
daddy :)

63. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love?
i'm not sure. i could be greedy and say a million POUNDS, then could find true love later on ;)

64. Which of your MySpace friends has a naughty piercing?
i don't know, ask them!

65. Do you own a pair of uggs?
i do not.

66. Do you want kids?
eventually i guess, but i'd be gutted if i didn't have a girl at all.

67. What's your favorite junk food?
any type of cake :)

68. Who was the last person who messaged you?
oo i can't remember.

69. Do you know what you wore the 1st day of school?
some sort of uniform, but i can't remember the one from my first first school, only the one from the other first school i moved to.

70. Are you taller than 5'6?
i think i am about 5'6"

i have no idea why i just wasted so much of my life filling that it, when nobody will read it haha.

the thing i look forward to the most,
is the thing that i dread the most.

i wish when i spoke, that my words would flow freely, without hesitation and having to think.
i wish i didn't have to resort to using pen and paper to show how i feel, and then feeling humiliated because of it.

maybe he will realise.
maybe he won't care.

i'm getting really bad with keeping up these journals. i'm so used to writing in my diary every night, you would think i'd be able to keep a simple online journal when i'm at the computer half the time anyway.

the workload at school has definitely increased, i'm getting at least 4 essays a week to do now, sometimes more, but i'm trying to keep up with it. i've handed all my work in on time so far this year, which is pretty good.

why is it that all i can think about these days is boys. well, one boy in particular. the boy in my form that i've known for years, that i fancied for 3 years before. gosh. this is the conversation between one of my friends and him whilst they were in art class together (not word for word as i wouldn't know):
my friend: one of my mates fancies you
boy: it's [insert my name here]
he wouldn't say how he knew it was me. i'm guessing it's because he knows i used to fancy him a couple of years back, and i have been trying to make conversation with him in form recently.
my friend: what do you think about it all?
boy: idunno *shruggs*
i don't even know what i felt like when i found out about that conversation, and the fact he already knew. gosh, how long has he known?? i feel like such a fool! the worst thing is, i was planning on talking to him about it the day after, but the form class was completely quiet, like nobody was talking, and i really didn't want the whole class listening in to my conversation! so i thought, right i'll talk to him about it today (that was this morning), but he wasn't in form! is this some sort of sign trying to tell me to not talk to him about it?!
all i wanna say is; oh, i heard about your art class on monday, you're not freaked out are you? and if he actually responds in any way, shape or form then i might ask how he already knew. but he sounds like my ex, in the lack-of-confidence-with-girls department. i really can't see why, there's at least 2 other girls that really fancy him. he's so amazing.
right, i'll shut up about him now.

i have spanish all tomorrow morning, and for once i'm not dreading it that much. i suppose it's always a laugh. there's only 7 of us in the lesson and we all know each other pretty well, apart from the one girl that never talks at all, she's way too shy, even though we try to invite her into our conversations. and it's weird to think that she used to be one of my close friends, and now we don't even talk.

i've decided to apply for the position of senior student at 6th form, i'm not quite sure what it entails, but i would get recognition at least, but not too much. i just want to be known for doing something, to make up for all the previous years when nobody has really known me.. hopefully i'll get it! i think i stand a pretty good chance as the head of 6th form is also my psychology teacher and knows me more than some of the other students.

i'm in a good mood now, writing this must have helped :)

bad cold on its way :(

i want him to come online, i enjoy his company, even if it is over msn a lot of the time.
maybe i'll pluck up the courage to ask him to come somewhere with me sometime soon!

i love it when i'm at the supermarket and i see a random guy that catches my attention, and i spend the rest of the time in the supermarket glancing over at him, whilst he glances back. i wonder what's going on in his life.

jelly!

just an ordinary day.
something i wrote for my english homework.

I hear the tap running,

it’s pattern as defined as my thoughts.

I can’t switch off the tap,

but it slows down eventually.

Drip. Drip. Drip.

 

The external noise may have stopped,

but each thought in my head is a musician,

each playing their own melody,

each experimenting with new sounds.

 

But their creativity has its limits,

and when the buzz dies down,

I soak up the noise of the silence.

Nothingness, emptiness,

until the musicians recover from their drought.

so i've been at 6th form for 2 weeks now. i like it a lot, it's so much different from year 11, so much more freedom. the fact that i can actually speak out in class without having to give a crap what people think of me is amazing, and something i've wanted to do since i started in year 7.

i found out that my gcse grade for music went from an e to a c! so that's another gcse i have, i'm so pleased! most people's grade changed cos they'd been marked incorrectly.

i'm so lame when it comes to talking to guys i like. the guy that's in my form, i haven't even spoke to him properly once since we started back i don't think, so i need to attempt that at some point. but the other guy i like, i went to a gig he was playing at last night and he came over, tapped me on the shoulder and had a conversation with me ^_^ he's so amazing. and he think he must have an idea i like him considering i told him how fit he was once before and i asked for his mobile number. i was so proud of myself for that, haha. but until last night, i'd forgotten how much i like him, i keep doing it when i don't see him for ages. i like him a lot more than i like the guy in my class too, least i've actually had proper conversations with him.

bahh. need to do some english work, if i can ever get round to it..

i need something to motivate me.
something to aim for.
but i'm not quite sure what..